S.S.

Nothing but work lately. It's gonna be weird when the break hits, cause I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself. Especially if Brian goes back to LA, since I don't plan to go with him Anyway, my cousin is back in town...and still a big pain in the neck, like usual. Haha! Anyway, it's nice to have someone else to hang out with.

[Private]
So, things with Charlie have taken quite the interesting turn. We somehow ended up on his couch jerking off next to each other. It was like something out of a porno, I swear but I'm definitely not regretting it. He's pretty hot and I wouldn't turn down the opportunity to do it again. After all, there's no attachment between us. We seem to understand that...although, I'm thinking that he's not straight. Most likely bisexual but I don't care, he's still my friend.

I'm still avoiding Brian. He wanted to go to dinner, for whatever reason, but I just thought it was better to turn him down. He pays me for my work and that's all that I need from him. Nothing more...cause I'm not looking to date. I'm pretty content being single, actually.
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I have to say that things have felt out of whack lately. I don't know what it is but I definitely think that the accident has altered the mood. I can't really explain it...

[Private to Charlie]
I wanted to apologize to you for the last time I saw you...you know, I was drunk. I probably ended up saying far too much about my life and my boss. I want to make it up to you, if you'll let me. Pizza and alcohol?

Anyway, I hope that things have been going well for you.
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I've also been contemplating getting another job, or attending college full-time. However, they're just thoughts at the moment.

Yeah...

Been having some extra time lately...

Oh well, at least, I get paid for it

Oh thank god! My hangover is finally gone...damn, I got so wasted last night. And you know what, even though my boss got upset that I called in 'sick,' I don't regret the party. I had fun...danced, socialized and even made out with another guy. While I would have liked more, because I haven't gotten any in a while...

Anyway, if Brian was extra moody today, it's my fault. =P

I hate being underage.

Whatever, I'm just gonna go to bed soon, anyway. I'm lame, I know, and I don't care.

I need a change of pace. SWM here, lean body, 19 years old. Looking for someone my age...24 max. Your pic gets mine. Discrete if needed.

[private]
What the hell is happening? I didn't really think that Brian cared about me, as long as he was able to get sex...and now it's become rather clear that he does. After some discussion which wasn't about us, he brought up how he has done all this stuff for me and it seems that he perhaps cares about me. What the hell am I suppose to do?

I'm not looking to be in a relationship and especially not with my boss...he's a decent guy, but I just don't know if I want more from him than just sex. I...I need...to not get attached to him.
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I'm bored tonight. So, I've been reduced to sitting on the couch and watching American Dad. Not that this is a bad option. It's definitely amusing, and not something that requires too much attention.

"A whole island made of fire? How manly!"

Oh, Stan you are so slow on the uptake. And there it is...he's realized that he is with gay republicans. And cue the musical number!

Man, I've just been kinda busy lately.

After Christmas, I went off to L.A., courtesy of my boss, and I got to see a lot of the popular stuff that there was to see. Even went to a couple of fun clubs. I had a good time and then for New Year's Eve, that was spent in Texas. So much traveling but it wasn't so bad.

That night got pretty crazy. Ended up getting really drunk with my boss and I don't remember the entire night, I know that I had a great time. Not to mention the fact that Brian came to find me so he could be my New Year's kiss. I'm beginning to wonder if he likes me. I do recall trying to call him out on it that night but he distracted me...with kisses and sex.

Anyway, we didn't get to spend much time in Texas cause we had to get back to Portage but yeah, It was my birthday like...6 days ago and it was pretty low key but still great. It felt like a date...given that Brian took me out for dinner and shopping. Got some pretty great stuff...lots of electronics but I am not complaining, haha!

whoos drunK?

Meeeeeee!

Hope that youall hav a guud night! Iam needed elsewhurr...hehe ;)

Hahahahaha!

According to TMZ, I have a boyfriend. That's news to me! This is fucking hilarious, honestly! Although, they didn't mention me by name but unless Brian has another assistant I'm pretty sure that I am the one that they're referring to. Although, they left out how cute I am...sad. Oh well, I think I'll print out the article and tape it to my wall.

I'm still laughing about it! =P

Man, not much exciting has really happened, lately. Aside from going to New York during the Thanksgiving holiday, which was pretty fun...even if it only was for a few days. However, I did get to see some of the fun places and got to do some shopping and I bought myself some really cute underwear. Now I have to start thinking about what to buy people for the holidays.

So...in relation to that: Talia, Hunter, Brian, and Charlie...what do you guys want? I will not take 'nothing' as an answer. I will go to the new porn store and get you all 'dirty' gifts. This is your warning. ;)

[Charlie]
CHARLIE!!! We need to hang out again. I have stuff from NYC for you, bucko! And I may have even gotten Sita a toy as well. Oops...don't hate me. Haha!
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New York City...that is all.

[Charlie]
Sorry that I had to wake you up but we had an agreement. Haha!
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First Thanksgiving away from home...it's different but I'm excited to spend time in this city.

Well, back to work...

Not gonna lie, it was nice being able to sleep in for the week. However, it was also boring given that I spent most of my days at home, usually in my room with my mother somewhat watching over me. Anyway, I'm ready to be social and all that good stuff...again.

[Private to Charlie]
Want to hang out sometime?
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I haven't been too 'active' on here lately.

So, I'm alive...and stuff.

Wow, Halloween is less than a week away. Still don't know what I'm gonna do...I think I'll be stuck doing candy duty. Maybe, maybe not...we'll see and as for partying over the weekend, who knows what'll happen. Perhaps, I just get dressed up and head to the local park to weird people out. =P

Am I even invited to the cast/crew party, given that I'm not necessarily either?

Maybe I'll head down to the Farmer's Market on Thursday afternoon for a bit. I should apologize to Chris' mother...about just blurting out that her son cheated on me. She'd always been nice to me.

I'm so bored...

Yeah, that's it. Gonna go try to find something to do...

Why is moving on so hard? I'm not saying that I want to take the guy back or anything...cause come on, the asshole cheated on me for two months. However, seeing his mother just pissed me off, especially once it was clear that he was a coward and hadn't informed her of his wrongdoings. She's not a bad person but I can only associate her with her son...does that make me a bad person to do that?

Fuck, I need to get drunk

[Private to Charlie]
Hey man. Sorry about losing my cool...I didn't want to take my anger out on you, since you didn't deserve it. How's the food that you got from the market? Were you able to make anything tasty with it?

And...I have a proposition for you, as well.
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And on a final note, work is work. Although, I swear I do more than I should for Mr. Sanders. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid for my work.

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[Private to Talia]
Will I be allowed to drink at your wedding? And I have a guest, I'll be bringing. My new friend, Charlie.
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This weekend hasn't been terribly exciting; however, that's not a bad thing. Got to play tour guide again with Charlie...yeah, I totally just told everyone that you are directionally challenged. Haha! Good times but it's nice to have a new friend...cause since all my high school friends went off to college, they've kinda forgotten about me. Yeah, it sucks but maybe we weren't as close as I thought we were and that's okay.

Work...well, work is work. Nothing exciting but it's good money that I've been putting away until I decide what I want to do with my future. Not sure what the rest of my weekend will bring but I'm pretty optimistic now.

Tally, do I get a 'plus one' to your wedding?

Online classes go by so quickly. It's kinda crazy. I'm already nearing 'finals.' Although, it's pretty easy considering that it's just 'reading' and then discussing with other classmates via the site. I'm getting an "A" in all my classes, although, I wish that I could take more but I suppose it's smart to not take on too many courses when one has a job.

Is there anything fun going on this weekend? Like a party, if not...someone should host one, cause I've done nothing of interest lately. Just working, online classes, and that's about it. In fact, I think my parents are having more fun lately. It's weird.

Tallywacker...when are you getting married and am I invited?

Brian: Still have your phone? =P